Post by LAUREL HYRULE on Jan 5, 2014 8:02:49 GMT
Laurel Hyrule
The forest was quiet and the camp was just about empty. That wasn’t good – they needed more people if they were ever going to stand a chance. Laurel wasn’t sure that they would stand a chance anyway, but she was doing everything she could to push that thought to the back of her mind. It always found a way to creep back up.
She was, in all honesty, a mess – if only on the inside. It thankfully had yet to shine through to her outward appearance in anything but the smallest ways. There were dark circles under her eyes, yes, but they were neatly hidden by the hood she’d taken to wearing ever since her rescue. It made sense to wear it given how chilly it was, but on a more personal level, it made her feel just a little bit calmer than she actually was. How could she be calm, though? She couldn’t sleep anymore. Every time she tried, she saw her mother and father and cousins all dying in various terrible ways. In some strange, sick way, it was almost better that she’d seen Iris die. At least she wasn’t left to imagine it. If there was one thing that they couldn’t have right now, it was a royal so unstable that she woke up screaming every night. The solution was simple: She would not sleep anymore.
She wouldn’t eat either. That was less because it brought up memories and more because she kept forgetting to do it. Her daily routine had become an endlessly repeating thread of chores – write up as many fliers as she could, patrol the forest, gather supplies, rinse, repeat. When she remembered she would grab a handful of berries or something small like that, but she was getting worse and worse at remembering with each passing day as normal things like hunger and boredom left her. It was almost as if she was attempting to convert herself into convert herself into an automaton. Maybe she was!
That was what was needed. Not a weepy, shaking, depressed young lady – someone who could shrug all of those things off. Maybe a stronger woman could have looked all of this in the eye and smiled, but she couldn’t. She had failed. But the least she could do was pretend that she was better. If all they needed was a smile and a “things will get better”, then she could of course provide that. Not sincerely, but it would look sincere.
Laurel was on one of her patrols now, though there really wasn’t a reason for her to be. It was late enough that it would have been reasonable to assume that no new recruits would appear tonight. These walks had become her substitute for a good night’s rest, though, and she welcomed anything that would give her an opportunity to busy her mind. Pulling her hood up over her head, she continued on her way.
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